He said, “But you don’t have the same hair (super sad face)"
I wrote: “Dear Hubby, You are right…I do not have the same hair. In fact, the head that once rocked long flowing healthy self-produced hair is damn near bald—by choice not circumstance but choice. Not external influence or interpersonal control but choice. Herein lays the phenomenon about which I would like you to join with us—me, my ancestors in The Cloud of Witnesses, my spirit guides, my elders—please join us and rejoice. You see Hubby you loved me to this place—the place where I choose radical change without hesitation. This place wherein I am confident and I show all of me regardless of aesthetic imperfections. You and I and Our Love for Me is bringing forth HER—the she I was intended to be but life and abuse breached me. And now at 30 I return to my born self. The one who cried out of Ophelia’s womb damn near bald but not broken at all. Damn near bald but so in touch with herself and her internal Divine that she was commissioned to bring light into the world. I know Baby she’s coming so quickly that it is hard to adjust as the insecure,timid, fearful, depressed one you married got up just a year ago resurrected with all of her power in her hands. And now she stands before you damn near bald—lacking the same hair and those same issues. But I do have me. I have the one who cried out of Ophelia’s womb damn near bald but not broken at all. Damn near bald but whole nothing missing. Damn near bald but I’m so in touch with myself and my internal Divine that in all ways and at all times I am fulfilling my commission to bring forth light by giving birth to myself. Let me be born…let me be born and expressed vividly.” I shared this written word with him And He responded: “You are liberating yourself and I appreciate that but the hair will take some getting used to.” #this is why I love this man like I do!!!!!!!! This is my final journal entry in a journal that spans 3 years of my life. This birthing cycle is complete and I commence my next phase as I entered into this world—damn near bald but not broken at all! through Love-in Light-for Life, Ophelia’s Only Daughter
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Melva
5/21/2013 12:31:04 am
The most powerful piece/peace yet!
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Kanisha
5/21/2013 12:58:51 am
Thanks Queen Mother Melva!
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Felecia Pearson Smith
5/24/2013 09:04:03 am
Awesome! it takes boldness to cut you hair! it takes more boldness to grow the interior of your soul! Your husband will always have his preference, but he will be alright! Much Love! Leave a Reply. |
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